Konstatin, You are perceptive about the anxiety but not about the depression.
I have the work for the machine before I have the machine. I am friends with this guy who at the moment pays heaps to get his work cut for him on a weekly basis. I have promised him that I can do the same work at a much cheaper cost. It means $1000 per week constantly for me and light work.
At present I make garden orniments out of concrete, now that is back breaking s**t. This is my way out. Not only that, I have other great plans for the machine too.
I see the machine as setting me free to do other things I have dreamed about. While it is cutting I can also work on my other ideas.
It may seem like I make descisions fast, but I have weighed up all the differences over a few weeks. I must eventually make a descision or I will not get things done. My figuing is if I pay too much then so be it, If I make a mistake then so be it. All I can do is make a descision based on what I have learnt and weigh up those choices.
The anxiety is due to my small window of oportunity. If I dont get this done then I will be pouring concrete S**t till the day I die. And that may come sooner if I cant escape from it.
I am applying the philosophy to life "Bite off as much as you can, and chew like buggery" I Know I am out of my depth with the CNC project. 8 weeks ago I had never heard of a CNC machine.
But I will get there.
I suspect you may be thinking about my thread where I said I feel like giving up. Well maybe your right and I do get a little depressed, I would call it discouraged. On the whole I march 2 setps 4ward and one step back.
Sorry to turn this thread into a psych session about me. But your question was an invitation.
EDIT: I like to use this forum for more than just getting information. Its like writing a diary, only others can read it and comment on it. I hope by posting my movements, it can either encourage others, or warn them about any pitfalls I take along the way.
EDIT: Oh and thanks for your concern.